The Thursday Dispatch - 28 May 2026
A year ago, I gave myself a challenge: to write on every Thursday for however long my schedule permits me to. I’ve since written on almost every Thursday every week since the last week of May a year ago. The only times I missed were once when I was out of town for work (I wrote on Saturday) and once when I was sick (I wrote on Friday). But, every week for a year is pretty damn good.
Thursdays are my blank slate. Initially, I didn’t know what I wanted to write about. Now, I write about whatever’s on my mind. These posts have helped me process a lot of things on my conscious. Sometimes, I’m introspective. Sometimes, it’s me processing past trauma. I’ve even had a guest submission for an idea here once, something I’m open to as long as it fits the bill here. Over the past couple of months, you can see in real time as I worked through a fairly rough patch of depression, anxiety, and feelings of isolation.
Sometimes, flushing things out here is all I need to keep going forward. However, over the past couple of months, I’ve begun to realize that while it wasn't nothing, it also wasn’t enough. So, a week ago I signed up for therapy and just had my first session this morning. I’m trying to learn how to process and flush out all of my shit before I bring it to the rest of the world. I’m trying to learn how to enjoy solitude more. I’m not fully an extrovert, but I’m not an introvert either, so I think I need some sort of balance there. But, what am I going to do with myself when I’m craving socialization, but don’t have the options I wish for? Can I be at ease with myself in those moments? That’s what I’m trying to learn. And that might take me dealing with some past crap that I hadn’t even considered.
Bottom line is I’m trying. I’m trying to be unapologetically my weird self. I’m trying to be a better friend, a better boss, and a better human. My therapist told me I’m already on the right track with some things. But there’s more to do, and I’m ready for this adventure. It’s too early for me to speak much more on therapy than that, but I feel like I’m doing the right thing.
Otherwise, I’m happy to make it a year on these posts. I think the structure and the practice have been a net positive. I thank anyone who’s ever taken the time to read me and to those who’ve taken the time to respond. I apologize if I’ve let an email or comment slip through the cracks. I might have ADHD, don’t take it personally. Anyway, here’s to another year of my thoughts spilling onto digital paper.
Weekly Photo
Sometimes he looks like the sweetest soul on earth and it’s enough to soften my heart.
This Past Week
Songs in the Chaos
This is my weekly list of songs that either caught my attention or came to mind this past week. I post these throughout the week on a site called Crucial Tracks, where they’re also added to a playlist on Apple Music. Feel free to follow me on either space.
