I’m supposed to get together with a friend today, possibly helping them out in their yard a bit. I’m wanting to learn how to grow plants. I want flowers I can appreciate. I want fruits and vegetables I can eat. I also want something I can put some effort into and enjoy the results of.

I’ve been thinking about a couple of things lately. First, just simply finding things to do. I think a big part of my anxiety and borderline depression is that I’m bored. It’s easy to rely on people or the television for entertainment. But people are unpredictable because life is unpredictable, so that’s not always a reliable thing. And TV can only do so much for you as well. So, relying on only those two things isn’t sustainable for someone like myself. I need to create and I need to do something that sometimes involves a process. Plants provide both of those things.

But that leads me to the other thing I’ve been thinking of, and that’s knowing what my intentions are and setting intentions in the first place. For example, I want to be mentally happier. By setting that intention, I can then analyze my life and identify the things that belong and those that don’t based on that intention. I recently heard a quote that says our lives are a reflection of what we pay attention to. So, if I want to be a healthier person, laying around and watching TV isn’t going to get me anywhere, so that would be something I eliminate while I would start using the gym where I live, taking more walks, and eating healthy.

Intentions are something I want to discuss with my friends and my coworkers. I want to be better at my job and I know I work my ass off. But am I always doing so in the right way? I want to make sure I am. I had a great day yesterday and I want to make sure I have more great days just like it. I want to see my friends get the things they want. I find the more I set intentions, the more I’m able to act on things and act correctly.

For me, I’m starting by writing my intentions down in a journal. I need to get back to logging my life (yes, I know I say this often). I know I need to be more mindful of things so that life doesn’t get off the rails with no direction. I remember baseball Hall of Famer Derek Jeter talking about how being prepared for an in-game situation actually made everything feel like it was coming at him slower, and that’s the space I want to be in. We all work differently, and this is what I know works for me. I feel it’s worth asking ourselves what our intentions are.

Weekly Photo

The former mayor of Omaha felt the need to tear down the public library downtown and replace it with a corporate office building. That building is shaped like a dick. What is it with Nebraska and its phallic-shaped facilities? IYKYK.

This Past Week

• The Still of Winter
• Well, That Was a Cold Walk
• Thank You for the Community

Songs in the Chaos

This is my weekly list of songs that either caught my attention or came to mind this past week. I post these throughout the week on a site called Crucial Tracks, where they’re also added to a playlist on Apple Music. Feel free to follow me on either space.